The unborn soul

I've been wishing my son and daughter-in-law would hurry up and start having children. I can't wait to have grand kids. There is something about little ones, with their unending joy of discovering life, that can reset your own sense of wonder. My mother-in-law was like this her whole life. She could always see the…Read more The unborn soul


Losing Confidence

When you spend many years together with someone, you become partners and confidants in everything. Lynn and I were like that. We always made decisions together about almost everything. We shared secrets and dreams. We supported each other in all endeavors. What I couldn't do, she did. What she couldn't do, I did. Decisions were…Read more Losing Confidence

Losing Youth

I have come to realize some new levels of my grief. Losing Lynn was not just losing my wife. The surface losses are of course the loss of my partner and confidant, the loss of my lover and the loss of my best friend. But there are deeper losses that don't reveal themselves at first.…Read more Losing Youth


Feelin’ good was easy, Lord

I was looking forward to seeing some old friends as I drove into my old home town. It had been a long time. As I hit the city limits, passing old landmarks, I realized that I had never been here without Lynn. We met in this town. We fell in love in this town. We…Read more Feelin’ good was easy, Lord


Time to Fight, Time to Live

I was reading one of the blogs I follow and the author talked about fighting through each day, fighting to overcome loss and adversity. I reflected on my current life and my own battles to get through each day. When I first faced life without Lynn, I had to fight through every minute of every…Read more Time to Fight, Time to Live


Last Monday in August

I don't know why I haven't written for so long. I guess I have been healing in different ways. I've begun working out again and that seems to help a bit. I have seen an old friend or two, but I still feel awkward in social situations. I just don't feel like I belong anymore…Read more Last Monday in August


Moving On?

A couple of weeks ago was our wedding anniversary. I thought I was doing OK, but realized I was really just sleepwalking through the days leading up to that date. Grieving a significant loss can play many games with your head. It was good to think about our wedding day and starting our young lives…Read more Moving On?