The unborn soul

I've been wishing my son and daughter-in-law would hurry up and start having children. I can't wait to have grand kids. There is something about little ones, with their unending joy of discovering life, that can reset your own sense of wonder. My mother-in-law was like this her whole life. She could always see the…Read more The unborn soul


Losing Confidence

When you spend many years together with someone, you become partners and confidants in everything. Lynn and I were like that. We always made decisions together about almost everything. We shared secrets and dreams. We supported each other in all endeavors. What I couldn't do, she did. What she couldn't do, I did. Decisions were…Read more Losing Confidence

Losing Youth

I have come to realize some new levels of my grief. Losing Lynn was not just losing my wife. The surface losses are of course the loss of my partner and confidant, the loss of my lover and the loss of my best friend. But there are deeper losses that don't reveal themselves at first.…Read more Losing Youth


Moving forward (a little)

I've been feeling lately like I need a change. I've looked at moving to a new house and also looked at buying a new car. I am organizing and getting rid of some things that haven't been used in a long time. I can't tell if I'm trying to eliminate so many ever present memories,…Read more Moving forward (a little)


What Remains

Take my sight from me, for I can only see your smiling face. Take my nose from me, for I can only smell your scent. Take all sound from my ears, for I can only hear your voice. Take my voice from me, for I can only call out your name. Take the skin from…Read more What Remains


When is it time?

I recently met a woman who had lost her husband about 14 months ago, around the same time I lost Lynn. She was starting to date again, and had met someone through an online dating site. I asked her how she was able to move on so soon and her answer was that she just…Read more When is it time?


Feelin’ good was easy, Lord

I was looking forward to seeing some old friends as I drove into my old home town. It had been a long time. As I hit the city limits, passing old landmarks, I realized that I had never been here without Lynn. We met in this town. We fell in love in this town. We…Read more Feelin’ good was easy, Lord